annie89509 wrote:
Allen, you should write a book, too: Journey-From the Inside. We hardcores will fall all over ourselves to get to it.
Well, to be honest, I've made a gentleman's agreement with SP, SS and RV to not do that. They alone know what that is.
I've been seen pouring NS into his room, paying off Strip Club Bouncers and Tarts from his transgressions, that's just kinda part of the job, so there's no denying any of that.
JC is the only one who I completely misread. Oh Well, whatchagonna do? So did Rindell and Herbie. I'm in good company.
There really isn't anything, aside from the personal areas most reasonable people agree would be inappropriate for public discourse, that hasn't been discussed already.
The book that needs to be written is Herbie's.
While I understand people's interest in my POV, it will always colored (tainted) with the curse of familiarity. Emperor's Clothes and all of that.
That Latin quote previously in my sig was the earliest reference I could find of "Familiarity breeds contempt."
I'm sure everyone has someone in their life who was once a "good friend", who is now for one reason or another or none, is no longer in that same role, or may even be on the opposite polarity of friendship. Not the opposite state of mind, just the other way personal involvement manifests itself. Love and hate are the same emotional state of being. Disinterest or apathy is the opposite form .
I see now how I was played to give JT what he needed to axe me. The era i was in had passed, and I was like the last soldier left from the previous Don's group. I had to go. A least it wasn't REALLY Soprano style, it just played like that....no one returns your phone calls despite any previouly made plans, can't find anyone, then, they want to have a meeting out back.
Amongst all the feelings and emotions present in this conflicted state is disappointment. Not the least in myself, lest anyone think I'm not aware of when that might have been. Oh well. I had a good run, complete with "one mo tam", that no one will replicate. Again. There will be no more working one's way up the ladder, from worker bee to royal inner circle ( to mix metaphors) in "The Music Business"anymore. That business model is antique, and in the same company today (Nocturne) the chance of getting to hang with "the Star(s)" to the extent I was able to, is nonexistant.
That was really then*. but...I digress....
I've chosen to not live with anymore of that negative part of my relationship with them. Why bother? I've paid the bills they stuck me with long ago.
I join a long and much honored list of ex-employees to be stuck with unpaid bills on the way out.
It's a lot like having a little finger missing in Japan, you messed up for the Yakuza boss, but you're STILL ALIVE !!!
As I've said elsewhere and often, they are no longer the last group i've worked for, nor are they necessarily the "coolest".
I enjoyed (nearly

) every minute and would only underscore Keith Richrd's advice to himself, to them.
Finally,
I'm reminded of something I've learned since then.....BIG TIME...
Definintion: INSANITY , Repeating the same action and expecting a different result.
That's why I'm really happy doing something else.
At last.
*It all died when Bill crashed into the tower. It's all been downhill since then. The Robber Barons no longer had anything keeping them honest.
“Madness is to hold an erroneous perception and argue perfectly from it.” Voltaire
The Hegelian Dialectic is in play. What do YOU do to insure it's failure?